I wish you knew

I wish you knew how bad it hurts
To be the last to know
To play the fool without consent,
A bit part in your show.

I wish you knew how hard it is
To fake my calm and smile
When inside all I want to do
Is hide my face awhile

I wish you knew how I regret
My naive optimism
How I believed I'd be the one
To free you from your prison

I wish you knew how much I cared
And lengths I would have gone
To reach you in your hardened state
And help your heart move on

I wish you knew how much I wept
The night I said no longer
But wishing will not fix us now
And I'm not getting younger