My Epiphany

Wouldn't it be wonderful to lose control
Just because

To run naked through the streets in the pouring rain
To dance in the puddles a long buried dance
That my childish heart once created
And feel no shame for my lack of talent or beauty

To shout your name and words unutterable from my rooftop
And bear no fear of the consequences or of rejection

To jump off this merry-go-round that is my life
And not give a moment's thought as to whether
I'll still be standing when I touch down

To let go of my tightly clenched fists
And relish the feeling of complete release;
The wind running through my fingers...
And not give a damn as to whether
What I thought I had been holding would ever be returned to me

To dip my toes into the ocean of experience
And for once decide to dive in -- fully clothed
Enjoying the sensation without struggling to stay afloat.

To let myself unabashedly weep in front of you
Not being ashamed of letting you see my softer side

To say exactly what is written in my heart
Without proof-reading first for what could be construed....
And not replay what's been said or kick myself
For my honesty and lack of eloquence

Wouldn't it be wonderful to lose control.....just because I can